Its Not The First Time

I’m a 30 year old independent woman, and do not have the luxury of being able to publicly speak my own mind when it comes to my family.  I posted a little thing the other day that had to do with my mother tormenting me and I did not say “Mom do you like tormenting me, I think you do, I think you get a kick out of it” No what I said was ” Do you like tormenting me, I think you get a kick out of it, thanks for ruining yet another day for me” and put it on my personal facebook, and what does she do? She flips out, like always.  And so has been tormenting me for the past 3 days, until finally today I removed my post, why because I can’t stand listening to her one more freaking minute.

Is that like the key to parenting? Tormenting your kids until they finally just cannot stand another moment of the bulls*&t?  And finally they cave in due to the bombardment of shrill voices wearing you down?  I know that it eventually works when it comes to my mother & me, its a bad parody of Groundhog Day (you know that fantastically funny movie with Bill Murray in it?).  I didn’t even talk to her all day yesterday to avoid arguing with her, and wham! first thing today she starts in on me again.  And then I start thinking about how nice it would be to jump on a plane and just go somewhere else, just to be away from everyone and everything.

I am in a real funk right now, I am unemployed (thank you borders), I am out of money (oh eff, am I broke), I am out of options, I have NO idea what to do with my life.  All I want to do, is say good bye middle state, and hello Atlantic coast state (can’t do FL, because of all the oil in the gulf – boo-hiss) and sunny warm beaches of my past summers and days.  But I can’t do that either, why, because my significant other won’t leave our area because of his family, me personally, I can do without living so close to mine.  I am restless and bored and don’t know what to do.

Till Next Time…..

Its been awhile since I last posted…

Its been 2 months since I was laid off from Borders (ya whats it matter now if you all know where I worked at…)

Its been a hectic, weird, frustrating, stressful couple of months.  Someone close to me is pregnant, shes driving me freaking crazy, thank god its almost over.  I’m getting sued for a lot of money from a bad business endeavor years ago.  I have to file bankruptcy because of it…and all that really swirls though my head as I contemplate all the craziness in my life is…

How can a bankruptcy attorney charge 1600 dollars to someone actually collecting unemployment? And want it upfront before even filing bankruptcy?? How is that even right?

Um hello, if I had 1600 dollars sitting around, I would march my happy ass into the court room and ask to settle the 7000 lawsuit for 1600, now granted they probably wouldn’t accept that, but hey maybe I could get something worked out with it.  But since I don’t have that kind of money floating around and since I am pulling in a whooping 900 bucks a month on unemployment, I can’t effing afford to even go bankrupt…Does anyone else but me see the irony here?

So poor you need to file chapter 7

Huh….even too poor to file chapter 7…

What an eff’ing joke the US legal system is….

Will pop in a few days to let you all know how much hell Baby Showers & throwing them just really are!

Till next time……

Its been almost two months since I last posted.  I know this is a bad thing to do when it comes to making a new blog, but this blog was intended to be the blog that was only for venting about what I could not about my place of employment.  I was wronged and I needed to tell someone about it, but the problem is that when the wrong is gone and everything settles into a good rhythm, then there isn’t much to blog about.  Yesterday I was laid off from my position, its been eliminated, I have been in a daze since then.  Hundreds of people in stores nationwide lost their jobs yesterday, and from what I can understand its to give more hours to the stores by reducing a supervisor position.

Its wrong in my mind.  I’m not sure what to do now that I have to pick myself up and basically start over again.  I have to decide what I’m going to pursue and with the job market in the condition its in, I’m just not sure.  At this point all I want to do is scream and cry like a child and “get my way” and have my position appear before me, with a chuckle from big brother telling me its all some kind of crazy mistake.  Well we all know that isn’t going to happen, and instead I am stuck here in this sicking kind of purgatory of surrealism in shock that I am now unemployed.

Till next time.

So as my last post stated, I was able to take part in The Great Interview Experiment and interview Rose who is the author of Pagan Wings, a fantastic and lovely blog, my questions and her responses are below.

1. How long have you been blogging?
I began blogging on Xanga in 2006, and still have my first ever blog;
complete with dramatic teenage login name. I began this particular blog in
January 2008 to document Paganism in general, and as it progressed, I split
it into the categories of simplicity/self-development and my pagan/student
life.

2. What prompted you to start a blog?
I began blogging as a way of keeping in touch with my closest friends, to
release anger and upset and so I could comment on other people’s blogs.

3. What is your favourite childhood memory?
A visit to Lundy Island for my 8th birthday. My parents and I spent a week
there with my grandparents and saw Seals, rabbits, puffins and a pied
wagtail who came right to our kitchen window. We climbed up Rat Island and
walked the length and breath of Lundy itself – from the lighthouse at one
end to the one at the other. It’s an island with one grocery shop, one pub and a little lane joining
them. It was the perfect story-tale village and I’d love to go back there.

4. Have you always been a Pagan, if not what prompted you to move towards
that spirituality?
I guess in some sense, my values have always been in line with Pagan beliefs
and values; I just didn’t have the label for it. However, I officially came
to Paganism in June 2004, and only found the Pagan Community [real-life
celebrations with other pagans] in 2009.

5. What would be your dream job?
I wish I knew! I love so many things it’s really difficult for me to
pinpoint what I’d love to do. I want to do everything! I know my life has to give me time in nature and time with my family; even if only after work. Writing, teaching, learning, painting, photography,
volunteering with animals, counselling, nature. something along those lines.

6. If you were given an all-expense paid vacation, where would you go?
America to visit my two best friends; New Zealand as it sounds like
beautiful or Lundy Island again. I have no particular wish to travel, though
I do want to experience.

7. What is your favourite type of sport to watch? Who is your favourite
team?
Tennis and Karate are the only things I’ll watch. I don’t really watch
television and if there’s nothing on; I turn it off. I don’t watch it just
because it’s there so the technical answer is “N/A” I suppose.

8. How would your friends describe you?
Haha, I’m not sure I want to know! I guess they might say Stubborn,
Supportive, Eccentric. One friend suggests: Opinionated, Independent, Trustworthy.
Generally speaking though, I’m loyal and I keep my word. Those are two
values I don’t compromise on.

9. What is the first thing you do every morning after you get up?
The very first thing? Think about going back to bed!
Generally I turn my laptop on to check emails, University timetable, the
weather and pour a cup of tea from my thermos flask [I make it the night
before].

10. What is your favourite season and why?
Spring. Autumn’s beautiful but a little chilly for me. Spring has new life -
cute baby animals, sunlight, a warmth to the air, the gorgeous sound of
leaves on the trees. it’s my season.

Thanks for the wonderful questions.
~Rose

Rose, thank you so much for taking part in The Great Interview Experiment, I appreciate the great responses to the questions and allowing me to post them on my blog.

Woohoo I got picked to interview and be interviewed

I just sent Rose over at Pagan Wings the questions I will be asking her and I just responded to the questions that Lori over at Loripalooza emailed to me.

So, check out both their blogs, they are fantastic and check back to read Roses’ answers, and check out my answers over at Loripalooza in the next day or so once she has a chance to post them.

The Great Interview Experiment is brought to us by Citizen of the Month and was started two years ago, if you want to enter go check out “The Great Interview Experiment Returns” and post a comment to be paired up with another blogger to interview.

I will have a new blog about work up tomorrow evening.

Until then…..

From our Mandatory staff meeting 2 weeks ago, I was once again informed of the fact that the elite are no longer allowed to wear jeans to work. This really cramps my style. I own more jeans than slacks, my jeans actually cost more than my slacks. Not to mention, they are warm, much warmer than the thin cloth of the few pairs of slacks that I own.

This past week, the high temperatures did not break 30 degrees, for a week straight. Going to work and working my whacked out schedule of being outside when its in the lows, not the highs is unbearable. Its like an arctic freeze when the electronic doors open and a blast of cold hell blows through and whips around my flimsy “business casual attire”. I have decided to buck the system. I informed the outsider two days ago that until it was back in the 30’s for the highs then I would not be wearing anything but jeans, since they are the warmest clothing items I own.

No write ups yet…..

Point for me

Not a day goes by that I don’t check my facebook, twitter, email, myspace, blog, 20sb, etc… to update my social following and to read the updates of everyone I follow.  I may not always drop a comment, but I am always checking out whats going on, whether via iPhone or actual computer.  What was once considered a way to keep up with old friends and as a study aid is now one of the largest advertising trends on the market today, Social Networking.

In the past, the only way for people to be involved with social networking was to attend conventions and other functions that were designed for individuals to meet other people.  Thanks to advances in technology and the creation of the internet, there are now online social networking alternatives.  A few benefits with social networking on a business level include the ability to form profitable partnerships and strategic relationships, increased revenue by targeting a specific market, and update both potential customers and employees of upcoming and current events, promotions, etc…

To be successful with social marketing, a few things are needed…

• Current website (this does not have to be a huge 10 thousand dollar site, just informative & easy to navigate)
• Create profiles with all social networking websites, ex. twitter, facebook, linkedin, myspace, etc…
• Build a following that is targeted to your specific customer base
• Update each social profile 3-5 times per day to keep yourself fresh in your followers minds

The hardest thing for any company to do is to update their profiles on a daily basis, there are many services out there that can provide this for a nomial montly fee, and the best one that I have come across is KnoxTweets, this company will setup all social networking profiles and maintain for one low monthly fee.  If you are looking for the perfect form of advertising, then look no further, sign up with KnoxTweets today.

So, I was on And You Know What Else today reading the recent posts and I came across one titled A-holes I Have Known and I literally almost spilled my coffee on my computer laughing like crazy, so I have decided to borrow the idea and shake it up a bit to be a 2009 A-hole of the year list.  So without further ado….here’s my top 10 list.

10.  Driving through the shopping center parking lot, seeing some woman looking towards a store front, while her kid is standing in the street, sticking his tounge out and waving his hands around in obscene gestures…(Ok lady your an a-hole for two reasons, one your not watching your kid, hes off the curb and into the street, where OMG he could get you know, RUN OVER, get it together before I have to watch you on the news crying because you were too stupid looking in a window to watch your kid.  The second reason why your an a-hole, no discipline, if you don’t discipline your kids, they will grow up to be a-holes, which will in turn piss me off).

9.  I called the cable/internet/phone provider awhile back to discontinue my telephone service, since I only use my cell phone and never used my home phone, I specifically asked the representative if there would be a charge for discontinuing the service, “No” was the reply I recieved.  A month later I have a 29.95 fee for discontinuing the service….um wtf….So I called them back and asked to speak with a supervisor, who told me they would have to review the recording before issuing a credit and that they would call me back within 72 hours.  No callback, a week later I called again, got another supervisor on the phone, who just credited my account, so, the company, the rep, & the first supervisor I spoke to, are all a-holes…Bad customer service = pissed off customer…

8.  The customers who call the store I work in constantly to ask if we have an item in stock, not knowing the name of the item, or who made the item, or can provide me or anyone with a description of the item….um why again did you want it?  Did you just want to make the phone ring off the hook 50 million times while I am understaffed and can’t answer calls every 5 seconds???

7.  Those people who see you waiting for a parking space with your blinker on and then steal it, a-holes to the max.

6.  The person I know who said he hates Obama (I could care less your views about our current government, but I can’t stand the hypocrites, that bash the system they abuse), and are against anything to do with medical reform, but then collect food stamps, medical aid,  and don’t work because they get “cluster headaches”, Boo hoo grow a pair, I suffer from migranes as well, but I get up and go to work everyday, with or without one, thats what the meds are for.

5.  Everyone who does not use a turn signal while driving, what is wrong with you people, was that not mentioned in Drivers Ed, in the handbook you have to take a test on to be granted a license from the DMV to drive, while driving the DMV road test?? Seriously, learn how to use it, your going to cause an accident one of these days cause you didn’t use it!

4.  Anyone who drives a dodge caravan, I will write a post later on as to why they are all a-holes, its really very funny

3.  The General & The Outsider, again you need to read One Storm After Another, for the back story on this.

2.  The person who lied to me over 2 years of friendship, only to try and harass my family and talk to my family behind my back, well of course my family told me what the deal was, so yes your a complete A-hole.

1.  The woman who said to me last week, “I’m on my lunchbreak, can you help me with this return” to which I replied, the line starts over there, to which she said “but I’m on my lunchbreak”…. I wanted to say, thats your own fault for shopping 2 days before christmas, there are no available registers and the line is where you have to go, if you want to return something, but of course all I said was, Sorry you have to stand in line for the next available cashier….She takes the cake, because she thought since she was on her lunchbreak she should have some kind of special status that the other 50 customers in line didn’t….What an A-hole!

Hope you all enjoyed this, just a little look on the annoying things in my life, will post again soon, on my hate against Dodge Caravans and their A-hole drivers…..

Its been interesting.  I got a letter today, from the employment attorney I contacted about this entire issue.  They told me to contact the Human Rights office, but that my case is basically not “big” enough for them.  Gee, thanks for letting me know that, its much apperciated that I can bascially be eff’d over, but that in all actuality if theres no “big bucks” in it for you then you won’t take the case.

On the work front, the Outsider is being all kinds of super nice to the few of us in the elite top spots, but I know what its really all about.  The Seeker & Comic are both skeptical of the Outsider, but the 2nd in Command has been won over, and since they are unaware of the truth behind those closed doors, I can’t blame them.  I am a bit dissapointed that 2nd in Command didn’t hold out longer, but at least I have the seeker & comic, which is definalty a plus. I have been working like crazy cause of the holidays, and really nothing special is going on, well except the fact that the outsider is making us have a staff meeting, which i hate, meetings always seem like a waste of time.

We from the top elite are supposed to make a list of who to “let go” after the holidays, the ones that can’t cut it or aren’t fast enough, it always depresses me.  I am considering calling a higher power about my “little” issue, we shall see the outcome of that.

If nothing happens in the next few days & I don’t post before the holiday,

Happy New Years

As the story progresses. I will be updating.

That is a quote from the greatest love story ever written, Gone With The Wind.  The description fits the outsider perfectly.  Basically the meaning behind it is that one is pretending to be something they are not by attempting to cast a different perception of who they are by the way they act.  I thankfully can see through this person’s act, I am aware of the deception that lies beneath the surface.

Today we had a little meeting, the outsider, the 2nd in command, the comic, the seeker, and me.  We five are the elites of our little box.  We went over silly little things that we already are aware of.  The outsider basically wanted to make us aware of the power struggle that is now coming into play.  Thankfully there are some who are on my side, more than are on his, they don’t know of course what happened in the room, but they are aware of tension, they are perceptive enough to see beneath the horse’s harness to the mule hiding and pretending.

An interesting thing that I did notice, the outsider is unaware of my plans, is unaware of what is brewing in my mind, as I continue to be polite and detached, but those who really know me, know that when I am polite and detached that’s when all hell is about to break loose, the calm before the storm.

Will keep you posted as the days progress….